so far..

Recently, i've been singing this song..

"Down at your feet oh Lord,
Is the most high place.
In your presence Lord,
I seek your face, I seek your face...~

There is no higher calling,
No greater honour,
Than to bow and kneel before Your Throne..~

I'm amazed by Your Glory,
Embraced by Your mercy,
O Lord, I live to worship You..~"


I had forgotten how it was like to just sit down before God and to worship and sing to him. I use to do that. In my uni hostel. I'll take put my guitar, sing, praise worship.. for hours on end. With no clear purpose in mind.

I just wanted to sing to Him.

And God brought back this memory to me, when i was at OPM last week.

He said.. "Will you sing to me once again?.."

My heart broke.

So this holidays I shall do my best to find time, and just to do this. Read my bible what so ever. It doesnt really need any purpose. Not to have divine revalations. Not to have peace of heart.. Not to have anything.

I just want to sing, worship and tell Him, how much I miss Him.. and love Him..
It doesnt matter even if i don't have anything back in return. =)

This is my way of telling Jesus.

I love You.

Lessons Learned..

I've learned that:

People are funny. While people might not love you, you can still love them.

People are not perfect. They say things they don't mean and mean things they don't say. Trust them anyway.

People need time to learn. Give them space to grow.

Even though you can go through a tough time, your world need not collapse. There are people who will still need you to be strong for them.

You're never alone. Though you might feel that way, people around you will gather around you to support you.

While it takes two hands to clap and two people to walk together. It just take 1 person to simply walk away.

Responsibility and commitment will come in when all else fail. It simply wont do just to cut everything away and run.

There's nothing free in this world. Someone always have to pay the price.

While you can love a person deeply, sometimes people don't feel the same way about you.

Words matter alot. The things you say and put across, or even post up in facebook will be looked upon and scrutinized. Wisdom is needed.

The strength of a person is not determined by the amount of weights that he can carry, but the intensity of the fire he can go through and the weight of the burden upon his shoulders.

The capacity of a man is not determined by the amount of money he can earn, or the number of things he can do, but the depth of suffering he is capable of going through and yet come out victorious.

While your word might be your bond, sometimes, the other party may not really have the same belief.

Jesus is the only absolute in life. Nothing else is.

Life goes on, no matter what.

People don't often appreciate what they have, until they have lost it.

Regardless of whatever that happens. Keep on loving. Because Love never fails.

Love till the end. Else it isn't love.

Huat ah!

我等到花儿也谢了

每个人都在问我到底还在等什么 Everyone asks me what I am waiting for
等到春夏秋冬都过了难道还不够 Is waiting for countless four seasons not enough ?
其实是因为我的心有一个缺口 Actually it's because my heart has an emptiness within
等待拿走的人把它还给我 Waiting for the person who took it away to give it
back to me


每个人都在说这种爱情没有结果 Everyone says this kind of love leads to no future
我也知道你永远都不能够爱我 In truth, I also know you will never be able to love me
其实我只是希望你有时想一想我 Actually I only wish that you can think about me sometimes
你却已经渐渐渐渐什么都不再说 Yet you silence is the only answer that you return to me..


我睡不着的时候 , When I am unable to sleep,
会不会有人陪着我 is there anyone to accompany me
我难过的时候 , When I am feeling sad and down,
会不会有人安慰我 is there anyone to comfort me
我想说话的时候 , When I am in need to talk,
会不会有人了解我 is there anyone who understands me
我忘不了你的时候, When I can't forget you,
你会不会来疼我 will you come and dote on me and love me ?


你知不知道 , 你知不知道 Do you know, don't you know...
我等到花儿也谢了 I've waited till the flowers have withered away..
你知不知道 , 你知不知道 Do you know, don't you know...
我等到花儿也谢了 I've waited till the have flowers have faded away..

Signs

A very good clip, in the world where we live in today, though sometimes, we're surrounded by people all the time, sometimes we may feel all alone. Or are we?

Update again!!

Hey All,

It's great to be able to seat here and blog to my heart's content again. Its been a tough week. I've had this serious fever that nearly took me home. haha, no joke. i've visited the doctor 3 times. within the span of 2 days!

What happened was that i developed a slight cough on monday night. Following the advice of my P, i decided to pay the doc a visit on tues and no turn up in school. towards tues evening, i started to develop a fever and started to have a real bad headache as well. by Wed morning, the fever reached a high of 38.1 degrees.

It would only continue to go up.

I visited the doctor again, who told me to take panadols and gave me 2 more days of MC. I reached home, by than my fever had hit 38.6. When my mum came home, she decided to drag me to TTSH for a swab test.

However due to the recent MOH policies, they didnt give me one, as they would only give swap tests to those who have had close contacts with actual H1N1 patients. That being so, to be on the safe side, they gave me 6 days MC and sent me home.

It was terrible. Through it all, I had diarreaoh, vomitting, and my fever peaked at 38.9, there was a period of time which i suddenly felt like vomitting, but could, and i started to break out in cold sweat. I really sweated, alot, it was as if I had run finish a marathon, only thing is that i was extremely cold, and ill at the period of time.

That aside, I've been trying to find out as much as i can about songs of all genere. I realised that I do not like just any kinds of music. But once I like the melody or tune, i would do my best to find and dig it out. Classical, Rock, as long as it is nice. haha Guess it suits the none-conformist me huh.

Moonflower, its a nice tune. =)

Change?

Have I really changed?

I wonder that to myself many times.

Looking back a few years ago. i feel that i'm very much still me.

Perhaps perspective wise, i look at certain things differently.

Perhaps I'm more sensitive to the needs of people around me.

Perhaps due to certain knowledge and experiences i've gone through, I react to situations differently.

Praise God for the change. (thats what people tell me anyway.. )

Me? i still think I'm very much me.

Selfish at times, Self-centered, haughty, proud.. and the list goes on.. I really feel that its the grace of God that saw me through so far. So much more to change, but i need to. Someday I want to be a blessing to my family. Whoever that is, whenever that is, Just like abraham, i want to be a blessing to the people around me.

hmm...

change.. so much more to discipline myself. Father, give me your grace!

Update updates!

hello peeps, been sometime since i've updated the site.

Hmm, 1 week after i bought the car, i got into an accident. It's a long story, anyway, i was in the wrong, and well, i paid for the person's repair and cab fare. It set me back $450. -_-" OUCH,

than just when i've settled that case, some one drove past me and hit my mirror. Worst of all, he claims its my fault!! -_-"

Thankfully, in both instances, my car was not damaged in any way. Praise God!

The Holidays have also finally arrived! (Time for some R&R) I hope.. haha

My Car

Posted this in my FB too. =) Sure feels good being able to get my own car. Thank God for His Grace and providence. Without You, where would I be today? Truely oh God, your blessings add no sorrows with it. =)

Abit more photos.

My colleagues, me, agnesm jared and poh lin.



Thats my CCA cadets.. not all of them, but well, at least some of them. Can you spot me? =)

Me and 2 of my Cadet Inspectors.

CAM WHORE!!!

I took this in the toilet, its the only place where there is a mirror. Haha, i decided to take some photos because. 1) I'm in uniform!! 2) Bored. 3) I've never cam whored myself before. haha

Tried it from another angle..

Without any smiles..

with some smiles..

Hmm, i took more, but with my cadets.. and they're in their cameras! Got to wait till i have them before uploading them here. haha.

Speech Day,.. tiring day, but well.. it's sure fun!

Last day before speech day~

Tomorrow's speech day in school. So today i shall try to go back earlier, after all, there's a combined CGM tonight at RW. Excited about what Pst's going to share.

My collegue remarked that i'm addicted to my blackberry and that i need to be delivered from it. I'm like.. "har"?

No seriously I think its funny, haha, but i guess if she knows why i use the black berry so often, it will be much better, which is what i did. (My blackberry contains alot of e-books, and i use it often to sms, msn, email, read the bible on it, read my wuxia stories on it.)

Hmm, looking forward to tomorrow, hope i can take plenty of nice pictures, after which i shall attempt to upload it all here..

my attempt to cam whore the other time failed. haha

well, laters..

This is our God

Heard this song over the weekend, not the first time though. Solid Song, I'm practicing it on the guitar the whole day (as in the free time) too. Just playing the intro alone caused heaven to be opened up in my room. Presence of God just came flooding in. Such an anointed song.

As i play and sing, I'm reminded of His goodness, of what He have done for my life this past 20 over years of my walk with Him. God is good, his blessings add no sorrows with it. Longing so much to be more like Him everyday. I can't help but cry everytime the song is sung. (not emo lar.. you will know when you're with me and when you sing it..)

Looking ahead to a fantastic 2009! Thank you lord!

2 Days of MC

Here i am blogging again, really thankful for the 2 days of MC, really made a difference to me, was able to finish my work and have a good rest (sort of).

Lets see what did i manage to do.

1) Finished my maths paper and answer sheet.
2) Checked through my D&T papers, got a few more mistakes here and there, well, that i guess i will settle it in a moments time.
3) saw a doc yesterday.
4) had dinner with a few friends. (good and bad, good because i enjoyed the time with them, bad because i'm like groggy because of the medicine and spinning head. At least i manage to get them all home and myself home in 1 piece.)
5)Checked with the sales assistant and confirmed that my car will come next week only. =(
6) bought a mouse for my mum.
7) slept and slept alot.

Wow, God is great! Did so many things. Looking forward to the exam period, cause after that will be a break for me.. well sort of a break.

Revelation of the day, hmm that i will share in a later post.

Tata all!

Built To Last

Love this song. =)




VERSE:

I've looked for love in stranger places

but never

found someone like

you

someone whose smile

makes me feel I've been hol

ding

back

and now there's

nothing I can

do

CHORUS:

cause this is

real, and this is

good

it warms the

inside just like it

should

but most of

all

most of

all, it's built to

last

it's built to

last

VERSE:

all of our friends

saw from the start

so why didn't we believe it too?

now look, where we are

you're in my heart now

and there's no escaping it for you

CHORUS:

cause this is real, and this is good

it warms the inside just like it should

but most of all

most of all, it's built to last

walking on the hills at night

with those fireworks and candlelight

you and i were

made to get love

righ

t

CHORUS:

cause this is real, and this is good

it warms the inside just like it should

but most of all

most of all, it's built to last

cause you are the

sun in my uni

verse

consider the

best when we felt the

worst

and most of

all, most of

all

most of

all, most of

all,

most of a

ll, most of a

ll

it's built to

last

Joke of the day...

Me: "Mum, I'm on 2 days MC, Doc says to get some rest. I'll need to go back school later though to take my laptop and finish up some work. I can drop by AMK hub to buy for mouse before going to meet steven, he says to meet him. Oh and Its a girl."

Mum: "Ok, would you want dinner? So Steven is a match maker now?"

Me: "I'm talking about his baby mum, what are you thinking???"

Mum: "Oh.."

Me: "....."

The LONG bridge

Thats the bridge linking to the two towers! =)

Hidden Entrance

Can you find the way there??

Southern most TIP

Signboard says it all!

William!

haha, my colleague spotted me. He really went around with all of them, great guy, great fun!

Some unaware students..

naa, actually was walking around to ensure that everything was ok, happened to chance upon them while walking to another check point.

Acrid Garden

A small garden where they were keeping some desert plants.. interesting, but very very HOT HOT HOT.. really, its like a desert! haha

Airconditioned Heaven!

A more over all view..

Koufu

Our makan venue

The Two Towers!

Lord of the rings?? not quite.. the 2 Towers are the final location of the amazing race. Really a beautiful and serene place.

Paradise?

Sentosa really changed alot, saw a mini "pool" near kou fu where we ate our breakfast.. kids can play there.. it obviously wasn't here long long time ago when i came here..

Walkway

Thats the walkway to "koufu" where a few of my colleagues and me went to "skive" haha, actually, we didn't have our breakfast in school due to a lack of time, hence we went here to eat before checking up on the students...

Whats that??

One of the many checkpoints i found the students fussing over.. haha,.. it was really really a very hot day too!

Carpark Warning

Sentosa's an interesting place.. never knew peacocks will attack cars.. so dangerous.. and WORSE.. cannot claim insurance.. me no like hole-ly cars.. -_-"

Photos!!

Phew!! Camp's over, really enjoyed myself putting it all together and making it happen! =)

Here are the pics, will get more and upload here. I think i will try to get montage and put it here too! =)

Sentosa!

Wow, day isn't over yet, tired but fun.. A picture speak a thousand words,
So I'll let the pictures speak for themselves. :)

Camp

Didn't sleep whole of last night. The camp is off to a great start! Think that the teachers and trainers have really placed in alot of effort and energy to make this whole camp work!..

Looking forward to the rest of the programs..

now,.. i need a shower.. hmm,

=)

I Dream a Dream..

Beautiful Song,.. thats the reason why musicals are the stuff of Magic!! Susan Boyle, you RocK!!

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

Sigh...

Just got a call from the sales.. told me to prepare to wait till 30th Apr 09. WHY WHY WHY??? Got to wait so long. Maybe the colour thing is right.. sigh.. got to press on. Gal 6:9 says "So don't get tired of doing what is good. Don't get discouraged and give up, for we will reap a harvest of blessing at the appropriate time. " (NLT) Wonder when is that time.. BUT, just got to keep on keeping on lo.

Been trying to read the bible more too recently. Got to get back into shape once again.

The Week???

why such a title you must be wondering.. cause.. anytime now.. IT is coming!! haha!! IT is supposed to be here this Wednesday. Hope after registration and all, I can get it earlier.. So assuming that IT comes on Wednesday, then they CHNG it for me.. HOPE i can get it maybe friday? Latest Sat?? Haha..

In case you are wondering what is IT.

it is...

Colour thingy..

Did a personality test..

you guys can try it too

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

Name: Eugene
Date: 4/12/2009
Colorgenics Number: 51432670

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You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.

Something funny i found on the net.. haha.. so true right?

Resurrection Sunday!

Today is Easter Sunday! Aside from all the rabbits and eggs,.. which i feel have totally no relation as to how Jesus came to die for us, I would think that it is a day to be thankful to God. For the things He has done for us.

Watched the drama a few times. Cried as many times as I've watched the drama.

Not being a sissy here ya? (neither am I being a SNAG) But I would think that who am I, that He would come and die for me? I had nothing, the one who is to be blamed. Yet He took it all upon Himself, and took my place upon the cross.

Thank you Jesus.

Today's gonna be another busy day for me, I need to finish my papers. And its gonna be a real hectic week. There's a school camp on in school. Guess I'm probably going to burn Wednesday, till Saturday camping in school.

Next week isn't much better. With Speech Day on a Friday the 24th Apr, i guess that week's pretty much shot too.

I really need a life. (At least at this point of time.)

Guess teaching isn't all about magic..

hmm..